This Empty Feeling...

Well, its 4 am & I just can't go to sleep! Everyone else on AIM is asleep, nothing's on TV, & my iPod's dead. But what's bothering me the most is this feeling waaaaay down in my stomach. It feels empty & sends a bad vibe up to my heart which runs negative emotions & thoughts through my mind. Blah, blah, blahh.. I feel like I'm avoiding the point. I don't know if its the fact that my birthday's coming up in exactly a month now & I'm unsure about it. I feel like nothing special is going to happen & NO ONE cares about it. & then I don't know what to do for my day ( last year I got my tongue pierced, shopped & went to 6Flags ),... Tattoo? Another piercing? Function? Chill?... Whatever... as long as I get a few blunts, birthday love & lots of cash... I think I'll be good. Maybe the fact that I miss living in the 31O, I swear that was when I was happiest. Another thing, why must a lot of you guys be so confusing?! Doing things I completely do NOT understand. Then its like I can never be with the guy I want because he's taken or trying to pursue EVERY girl, not just myself. Or maybe its just some of the simple things that I'm unsure of. Whatever! I'm done complaining. I might make an entry for my " Guy Problem( s ) " later, but I think I'll go to sleep now. Gooooood Nightttttt!